This page shows all of my old blog posts that I couldn't bare to get rid of... I think it is important to look back on the growth of a person... And this is like my own personal archive of my late teens.
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Over the last few weeks I am felt extremely down. Social media has played a key role in this because day after day after day, all I am seeing is negativity. I don't have a TV, don't subscribe to any news sites or listen to the radio because in the past these 3 things have caused me to feel the exact same way I have been feeling. After seeing and hearing about all of the terrible things that have been going on all over the world it started to become too much for me to handle. I began to struggle to sleep because of this constant worry and the fact that my brain wouldn't switch off. Because of the trouble getting to sleep at night during the day all I would want to do is sleep… Which then of course left me with no motivation what so ever. The internet is a great thing but when you do get involved in the world of Facebook it can get very difficult to get out of. I have found myself sitting there staring at a screen. I get on there and scroll, click, like and comment. Before too long I have been staring at this screen for four hours. Where did all that time go? I have realised that it has a way of consuming my life more than I originally thought it did. I decided that because of the way I have been feeling that I had to get off Facebook. I needed to let my body heal itself. 1. YouTube Discovery Yes, YouTube involves a screen. I like to watch YouTube when I am eating a lone during the day or when I am doing something extremely boring like doing the dishes. On my YouTube travels I came across a channel called “Exploring with Josh”. The title says it all really. Basically Josh and a group of his friends travel around the world and explore buildings that have been left behind. I am an absolute sucker for stuff like this and was immediately hooked on his videos. He explores buildings such as old Asylums, Hospitals, Mansions, Ghost Towns, Theme Parks and even strange places that I didn’t know exist such as the Suicide Forest in Japan! If you like to look at old, rundown buildings, architecture and enjoy spooky vibes this channel is definitely the way to go. 2. We sow the seed, nature grows the seed, and we eat the seed Much like Neil from The Young Ones I am all for growing food in the backyard. While I was taking a break from being a lump in front of a screen I finally got around to putting some seeds in pots so that when Spring comes along I will have some happy, healthy seedlings to plant in the ground. I only have a small Vegie garden which is a shame. When renting it is harder to create a food forest, it’s not like I can turn the entire yard into one so I only have a small section which is dedicated to food. Another hard part about renting is that when you do make a vegie patch you put in a lot of time, effort and money… So if you do find out that you have to leave or that your lease is over it can be really heartbreaking. We are extremely lucky where we are because they don’t mind too much about what we do. We are allowed dogs, to build a small Vegie Patch and are even in the middle of building a chook pen. The seeds that I have planted this time around are: Chilli INFERNO, which sounds like heartburn on a plant, mixed with tears and pain, I have also put in some Capsicum, Eggplant and Watermelon. I get my seeds from Tasmania so they are grown in colder climates so I am very excited to see how the watermelon seeds go. Up next we have a few herb seeds which are happy in the ground too: Yarrow, Mugwort and Chamomile. 3. Meditate This is something that I should be doing every single day but sometimes for some reason I just don’t. It’s not that I am lazy. I just forget sometimes. It seems really stupid that I forget to find a peaceful spot to sit or lay with my eyes closed but I just do! This week though I have tried to do it more and hopefully it will become a habit from now on. Meditating is so good for the body and mind which is what needs to be worked on in my life at the moment. I actually got on top of our chook pen roof and just meditated for a bit before laying there looking at clouds. 4. Started a Creative Journal I honestly couldn't think of a better way to try and unwind myself at the end of the day. One of my problems that I have is that I can't switch my brain off when I go to bed. Over the last few weeks I have struggled to get to sleep at night because my brain won't shut off, which then leaves me wanting to sleep all day... Which then create me but as a lump version with no motivation to do anything what so ever. I decided that I will start having a journal to write in. I doubt I will write in it every single day but it would be nice to try. I will get out any thoughts that I am having BEFORE I go to bed so that all the negative thoughts can be closed away for the night. Creative Journals are pretty cool because they are not just writing on a page. They are drawings, bits of material... All different, colourful things to make it more pretty! 5. Puzzle This is probably one of my favourite things that I have done this week. I am not sure how many of you have heard of Seth Sentry but he is an Australia Hip Hop artist. Last week he had a little thing going on, online where you buy ANYTHING and receive a free puzzle. As part of his merch he has puzzles of his album artwork which I think is so unbelievably cool. I ordered something and got a free puzzle, then found out that Ricky had got one as well. We had both got one as a surprise for each other without knowing that we both ordered one. So this week it has been a huge week making this amazing puzzle. The best part is though we get to make another one straight afterwards too! 6. Sew, sew, sew I do this quite a bit however this week I got my sewing mojo back. For a while there is became non-existent. It was just after I got a heap of fabric as well! I am so glad I have picked up sewing again this week though because it is such a rewarding and relaxing (most of the time) thing to do. I will do a post very soon with my creations from this week as well as in the past. 7. Book This is a really insane thing for me to do. I used to be really into reading. When I was younger I remember going to Knox City with my parents most weekends and going into Borders Bookstore and spending my pocket money on A Series Of Unfortunate Events Books, the Rainbow Magic book series and a heap of those Dragonology, Wizardology etc. books. I was reading the entire Lord of The Rings and Harry Potter series by the time I was in grade 6. Then of course I went to high school and was forced to read books there as well as read in my own time. I read the Twilight Saga, re-read the Harry Potter and Lord of The Rings Series, read heaps of pathetic lovey dovey stories, I got into books to do with Titanic and also the whole tragic Hitler time in history... I used to read all the time when I really think about it. I would be finishing off big chapter books in one day because all I would do is sit there and read til the very last page. For some reason though out of nowhere I stopped reading. I didn't get into reading chapter books or going into another world, I didn't enjoy crying over the silly lovey dovey books or when someone died, reading become nothing to me. I tried reading Game of Thrones but even that became very hard! I tried reading The Zietgiest Movement... I did however read quite a lot of an Organic Vegetable Gardening book that I got for my 18th Birthday, I still haven't finished it though. Dad also got me a book called "The Power of Now". Still haven't read it. This week though I came across a book that I thought "I need that book. I need to read that" so I ordered it. Unfortunately it isn't here yet so I can't say whether or not I have spent the whole day reading it but it really stood out and had something about it that made me just want it. It is called Arthur: The dog who walked across the jungle to find a home. Basically from what I have seen it is all about a Swedish guy who is doing a huge marathon in the amazon. He comes across a stray dog one day in the jungle and feeds him a meatball. After that the dog doesn't leave him alone and stays by his side for the rest of the trip, before finally settling back in Sweden with his new found owner. I am not sure if it is because of my new love insane love for dogs or the fact that I need to read something happy but this book just looks/sounds amazing! Conclusion:
I of course did many other things on my "Facebook Holiday" but I don't want to make this blog insanely long. My conclusion though after all this is that Facebook does consume just a little bit too much of my life. I am sure I am not alone on this. Even from just going off it for a week it has made a difference in the way that I feel about life. Not too long ago I lost someone who was one of the most beautiful people to walk the planet... She used to tell me this "Sometimes you just can't hold the weight of the world on your shoulders. You need to forget about that and worry about yourself for a while". My Dad reminded me about this and made me realise that I do need to focus on myself a little more instead of everything else around me. If you feel like Facebook is becoming too much for you.. Just have a break. Even if it is for a few hours. Put that phone down and immerse yourself in the other things around you.
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