This page shows all of my old blog posts that I couldn't bare to get rid of... I think it is important to look back on the growth of a person... And this is like my own personal archive of my late teens.
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I opened up my clothes draws today and could not find the one thing that I needed. I looked in every draw, throwing things all over the floor and bed. It was never in my draws though... I was in the wash because that is where ALL the things I wear more often end up at the end of the week.
I went back into the chaos of the bedroom and looked at all these things... Things that I don't need, things that I don't use, things that I probably don't actually want. I actually hate clothes shopping. I am one of those girls that if I hear that stupid "all girls like shopping, make up and shoes" I have something big to say about it as I am not keen on many of those things at all. I don't buy clothes each time I go into a shop because I hate it. I could not think of anything worse than going into a clothes shop and spending an hour there before moving onto the next shop. I get attached to things very easily (probably because I don't like clothes shopping) and that daggy T-shirt that I've had since I was 13 is one of them. When you realise though that in that pile of clothes there is not only one daggy top from the "old days" but 10 you need to reconsider things. I mean why do I need 4 of the exact same top?! At the time that seemed like a great idea taking advantage of the "4 for $10" sale (come on that is a good deal) but I have only worn one of those tops a few times... But I have 4 of them just sitting there. I went through every draw reminiscing with each item of clothing that I felt in my hands. Oh the memories!!! This happened with all of my draws. The shorts draw, the jumpers draw, the tee draw, the misc draw, the pyjamas draw... Even my socks draw. I GET ATTACHED TO MY SOCKS! We have so many THINGS that we just don't need. We go shopping because it makes us feel good and then when we buy something it gets added to our bunch of "things". I really want to start using a bit more self control with "things" that I don't need. If I really want to buy that beautiful dress then I should probably get rid of another one first, pass it on to another person who will love it as much as I did. It does get hard, especially when my weight changes and one minute a pair of jeans will fit me and the next they won't. It is nice to have that back up pair of jeans for when that happens but maybe I need a new system. Maybe I'll have my back up clothes tucked away in a box for when they are needed and the clothes I wear all the time in my draws. I could even have a box that is seasonal, hide the winter ones away in summer and the summer ones away in winter. IT IS TIME TO GET RID OF THIS STUFF. I have decided though instead of donating all of it to the Op shop I might actually try and turn my favourite items of clothing into "new and improved" items of clothing. Then those old tops could be a completely new thing for me to wear! I also LOVE to make baby clothes so I couldn't think of a better thing to do with my old favourite clothes than to turn them into baby clothes. I know it sounds crazy but I want to be one of those Mum's that makes baby clothes for their babies. I am actually getting not bad at making them and think of the amount of money saved! Baby clothes cost more than full size human clothes. If I start now by the time I am 100% ready to be a Mummy I will be an absolute baby-clothes-making-champion! I am going to make a post shortly with some of the clothes I have made and hopefully some that are made out of my favourite items of clothing. This is only part of the de-cluttering project that I want to begin to incorporate into my life. There will be future posts on other things that I need to de-clutter as clothing is not the only thing in my life that needs de-cluttering. I love the word de-clutter more and more each time I write it!
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Dear Michael Crafter,
I hope you are feeling great after your day of being a sexist, racist, misogynistic, transphobic piece of shit. I am sure you are on top of the world just like your pathetic supporters basically praising you on how great you are! So... Where was your daughter today? Was she at home with you playing with her toys? Or was she at kinder/school? Perhaps she was getting finger banged in a tent? I want to transport you into the future for a minute... Close your eyes.... Okay so your daughter is 15 and is going to see that hardcore band that she has fan-girled over since she had just started high school. She is so excited and is getting ready to go. On the drive to the venue she mentions the lack of women on the line up... I mean 5 bands on a line up and only 1 female. She is disappointed by that. You have 3 ways to respond: A) Pretend that you actually care what she is taking about. After all she is your daughter and you want her to grow up feeling strong and like she should be on the stage just as much as the males she sees shredding. B) TELL HER WHAT YOU HAVE TOLD US. That the reason that there is a lack of females on the line up is because they should be better. Do it, I dare you. Tell your daughter that she NEEDS to be better. It's not like she gets enough pressure each day from the things that she sees and hears at school, on social media or in advertising. High school is already a shit hole full of pressure but I think that you should probably tell your daughter that she isn't actually good enough to even play on a stage. C) Tell her that despite the lack of females on the line up, there will be a heap of girls happily getting finger banged up the back... They'll enjoy the show right? Hey maybe you could even mention the time that you said awful, disgusting things about women then mentioned all the naked snapchats you were getting... Because that totally shows your support for women. You should be ashamed of yourself. You should feel guilty about the things that you have said. You should also remember that your daughter won't always look up to you... And that no matter how many times you try to delete your comments WHATEVER YOU PUT ON THE INTERNET WILL ALWAYS BE THERE. I hope that one day your daughter googles your name to only find out what you have said about women. I hope that she makes you feel shit and unsupported like you have made so many other young women in the music industry who have supported you over the years feel over the last 24 hours. YOU HAVE LET YOUR DAUGHTER DOWN. YOU HAVE LET THEM DOWN. YOU HAVE LET THE WOMEN IN THE MUSIC SCENE DOWN. FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOUR MISOGYNISTIC VIEWS, YOUR SEXISM, YOUR RACISM, YOUR TRANSPHOBIA. Love Maddie, on behalf of all the women in the music industry who are going rise up against assholes like you. At the moment I am slowly transitioning to a vegetarian diet. I know that this isn't for everyone but for me... It is relatively easy! I mean yes... It is easier to throw a steak in a pan instead of boiling a heap of lentils then adding that to some other vegie mixture to actually make it edible and not just a pile of lentils. It is super rewarding though when you end up with this amazing meal that is meat free! I am by no means going to attack people for eating meat... How can I? I have spent most of my life eating meat. I am also still having meat night once a week. At the moment that is just because of the trip to Melbourne to see a gig each week and the lack of quick, vegetarian options that they offer on the 2 hour car trip to Melbourne. This will soon change though! ...The one question you ALWAYS get asked when going vegetarian is why?
For me it is for my gut problems. In a nutshell I get heartburn about 75% of the day, bloating, constipation, stomach acid leaking up into my mouth, digestion problems, indigestion and a constant phlemmy cough (I cough up stomach acid). Basically with all of these things happening I have a few options: 1. Go on medication to stop the over production of stomach acid, however this medication has lots of side effects including the potential to harm reproductive organs... As a clucky person this is a big NO NO! 2. Go back to the doctors and get more tests done to see if there are any possibilities of surgery. 3. CHANGE MY DIET! Now I don't know about you but number three seems a hell of a lot easier and nicer than number one or two. So that is what I am doing. I have to cut out meat, add more vegies, reduce sugar and dairy intake. I have actually been quite passionate about cutting sugar out of my diet for a while! I watched "That Sugar Film" and since then have worked hard towards cutting out the bad sugars in my life. I am definitely not consuming as much as I was before watching that masterpiece of a film. Basically it is about a big sugar experiment where Damon (the man of the show) who is on a sugar free diet eats sugar in his diet. He is eating the average amount that we eat each day 40 TEASPOONS of sugar a day! It is mental isn't it? He even eats the 'healthy' alternatives, meaning no lollies, chocolate or soft drink. You will be extremely suprised about just how much sugar is in everything. If you haven't checked it out already do so because it might just change your life forever. That is the main reason that I am going 'vegie'. I am also extremely keen to one day be fully self sufficient and on a diet that has meat that will be harder... Especially because I get attached to things like chooks and cows very easily. There is no way I could cut them up and eat them for a Sunday night roast... However that pumpkin growing in the garden... I could easily chop that up and roast it on Sundays! I think I am going to start including some of the recipes that I have made that are vegetarian if anyone else wants to give them a go! I found an awesome recipe for vegetarian taco mince (made out of cauliflower and lentils) that tastes so good you wouldn't even know that you weren't eating meat! It is going to be a long process but I am extremely excited for the day when I can say "Happy One Year of Meat Free Life". Check out That Sugar Film here. Don't you love that feeling where you are woken up in the early hours of the morning by your 8 month old Puppy? And especially after only a few hours sleep after a long night of jumping around to your favourite bands? I love that feeling! It sucks but I still love it. Like all Smith Street Band shows it is ALWAYS a night to remember. They are one of those bands that I can see over and over and still be just as excited for the next show/tour they do. As a young person I have only just started going to Over 18 shows and all the crazy venues that I've heard my Dad talk about for years and years. This show was held at Max Watts House of Music in Melbourne. I had never been to this venue before so had no idea that it was underground! As we walked down the stairs and it got darker and darker the room suddenly opened up into a beautiful and intimate venue. Intimate shows are my favourite because there is never thousands of people so it is slightly easier to tough it out when the crowd is full of knobs. The room was slowly filling up with people and before long was also full of the mellow sounds of The Jess Locke Band. I have never seen them play before but I am VERY glad that I got to experience it. To me personally her voice reminds me of Megan Washington mixed with her own individual style. They played a strong set full of songs that brought shivers down your spine, to a smile on your face and then back to tears. Although more slow than most of the other artists of the night they still filled the crowd with a beautiful energy that made your heart roar! After a change over which felt like it went forever the second support act for the night began to play. Joelistics got up and wowed the audience who wasn't expecting there to be a hip hop act on this punk/rock line up! He started off his set with a spoken word... He spoke the truth and with such power! I honestly could have listened to his spoken words all night. After a technical difficulty started he did ANOTHER spoken word full of just as much strength and honesty as the first one. You could feel his emotion pouring out of those words that he spoke. Despite the fact that so many people were there for the punk rock side of things the whole crowd had there arms in the air and were bopping around. I thoroughly enjoyed it! Now for the act that so many punters were looking forward to... Luca Brasi! These boys are band that never lets you down. They get the crowd yelling, jumping and fist pumping, then they can bring the crowd back down to swaing and waving your arms from side to side. Tom Busby played each guitar riff exactly like the album to the point where you couldn't tell if you were seeing it live, or listening to it off your record player in your lounge room. Pat jumped around as he always does bringing the crowd to the same amount of energy that he has. Danny sat behind the kit never missing a beat... And he even got the guns out by wearing a tank top. This is something I've never seen at an under 18 show, so I guess that over 18 shows do have their perks after all! Tyler, the front man... The bass player... The guy with the raw emotion coming out with each lyric. This band not only played the fan favourite off their three albums but they ripped out a new favourite of so many people throughout Australia... They played their Like A Version of Paul Kelly's "How To Make Gravy". As soon as Tom and Pat started strumming the crowd fell into complete awe of the sounds they were hearing. Just as the chorus began I turned my head around to look at the crowd and saw a guy on his friends shoulders screaming along with Tyler. It was a beautiful sight seeing so many people enjoying this song performed by Luca Brasi. Overall these guys put on a show to definitely remember! As people began to get super drunk, the change over started to feel like it was taking even longer!!! Everyone had seen a post on The Smith Street Bands Facebook mentioning that Wil went to Hospital and something about a "Wil chair". Sure enough two seats were set up on the stage, one for Wil and one for his leg. Wil came out first on crutches, with hospital cap and gown on, and en oxygen mask on his face. The crowd erupted with so much noise and you could see how much happiness that brought Wil by the look on his face while he sat down! He spoke about what had happened to his leg... Basically at the show they played the night before he jumped and fell on his leg wrong, causing a high grade muscle tear and internal bleeding in his calf. The crowd was in awe of the story and more so the fact that he didn't cancel the show. He opened the set on his own playing I Love Life. He was there strumming his guitar with his leg elevated and singing as if he wasn't in a heap of pain. The crowd was so loud, yelling along to this beautiful man on the stage all alone. Just before the energy towards the end of I Love Life began out came the rest of the band.... Just in time for the wooaaahss. The set continued on and there was not once inch of it where there was no energy from the band or the crowd. The show was nothing more than you would expect... Full of Fitzy's awkward humour, Lee's smart ass attitude and Chris's beautiful hair! They seemed to play even tighter this time than any other time I have seen them play which does not seem possible... I didn't think they could get any better or tighter than they already are. There was not a beat or riff out of place though. I was totally mesmerised by Wil. I usually pay attention to all the members but tonight my eyes and everyone else's were on Wil! I've always absolutely loved Wil. There are only three men on this earth who give me butterflies: 1. Ricky 2. Wil 3. Nick Cave I blew Wil a kiss and our eyes connected and he nearly dropped his pick but that smile said it all! The band also played a new song which is going to be released on their new album early next year! That song is called "Death To The Lads" and is about assholes in the crowd pretty much. It got the crowd going and before too long people were picking up on lyrics and singing along... Even after first listen the crowd was loving it! This is extremely promising for their next album. After the lights were dimmed and we all yelled out encore the lights came back on and they ripped out Young Drunk. The fan favourite and the perfect way to end a night full of some of the best music that Australia has to offer. Below are some photos of Wil playing on the "Wil Chair". I might write a story time soon of some of the fun things I've done with The Smith Street Band/Wil.
If you haven't already make sure you check out all the artists I've written about above! Lets get down to business shall we?! I am a dog lover. To me a dog is like having a baby just minus the giving birth part, screaming, crying, pooing and weeing (most of the time)! They are the closest thing I can get til I am ready to have a baby of my own. I have grown up with dogs my whole life and when I moved out of home it felt extremely weird to not have a furry, happy face looking at me in the morning. I mean I had Ricky's face but there is something special about waking up and seeing your dogs face. It seems like to them that seeing us is the best thing that could ever happen to them! They don't have to work, the don't have the stress of every day things, they don't have to worry about money or what to get for their sisters Birthday... THEY ARE FREE! They are free and all they want to do is love you, cuddle with you, play with you and be there for you when you need someone. I am going to introduce to you my two Furbabies now who mean the world to me! Basically last year a day or so after Christmas out of nowhere my childhood dog Ruby passed away. It was a really hard day for me and even now just thinking about it is hard because I loved that dog so much. When I moved out of home I didn't get to see her as much and each time I went to Mum and Dad's she was so excited to see me! One of my last memories of her happy was actually Christmas Eve. I turned up to Mum and Dad's and she was in the garden sun baking. As she was going a little bit deaf she couldn't hear me yell out her name so I snuck up behind her and touched her gently. She then woke up and was wagging her tail like crazy and smiling! Not joke Ruby actually smiled. A lot of Stafford-shire terriers seem to be able to put their lips up and smile. Cutest thing ever. So that was one of the last memories I had with her. I had never seen her so excited to see me and so happy. It was absolutely beautiful. It was after she passed away that I realised how much I want to have a dog. We always spoke about getting one but the time never felt right. I went into a state of sadness after she was gone and my boyfriend figured that maybe getting a dog would help me. It did! So here we have our little man Marley. He is meant to be a red heeler X staffy but they don't know what the Dad is so we aren't 100% sure on his exact breed. Isn't Marley a girls name? Maybe, but that is his name. We actually didn't name him as he is a rescue puppy. He was in a litter of 5 and we were one of the lucky people to adopt one of those 5. We wanted a boy so we got to go out and meet him which was absolutely awesome. As soon as we saw him we fell 110% in love with the little guy and handed in the official documents straight away. A week later we had him at our house! To your right is the first photo ever taken with him on the day that we got to meet him. As first time on-our-own dog owners we were really worried that it would be really difficult. I mean puppies are destructive, you have to toilet train them, they wimper all night long but this little guy was so easy. Of course their were a few little mishaps on the floor here and there but for the most part he was really good. We trained him with those special training pads that you can get. They are basically like a big pad that you lay out on the floor near the front/back door where they can go without getting in trouble. He learnt pretty quickly that if he went on his pad instead the he wouldn't get in trouble. Shortly after though he knew that if he wimpered/scratched at the door that meant that he would get a treat if he went outside. Within a month of us having him he was fully toilet trained. He still hasn't chewed up any of our things either which is amazing! He knows what toys are his and what he isn't meant to chew. Marley is our favourite little snuggle buddy and each morning he wakes up at about 6, comes into our room and snuggles with us in bed til we wake up at 7. It is such a beautiful thing waking up next to your favourite person in the world AND your favourite dog in the world. I can almost guarantee that there will be many Marley updates and stories. I just didn't want this to be too long. Below is a photo of him now at 7 and a half months old! About two months after we got Marley we had to take him to the VET to get his vaccinations/wormed/fleas all up to date. At the VET near us the pound for the area is attached to it not far from the car park. As soon as your car pulls up all you can hear are dogs yelping and barking which is a really sad thing to hear. Anyway after all of Marley's stuff was done we went to take him back to the car... But instead of us getting in the car we left Marley and went around to the pound area. If you are a dog lover... This can be a bad idea because they are look so sad. I have never seen so many BEAUTIFUL and sad dogs. They had nothing in their cages, not even blankets, just a piece of wood to sleep on. The cold wind was blowing right into their cages as they wimpered and barked. In particular though there was a staffy with big brown eyes staring at us wagging her tail. We left the VET with heavy hearts. An hour later we were back at the VET! To do what you ask? To adopt that beautiful brown staffy! Withing three days we had this gorgeous girl at home with us. She was covered in oil or something so when we gave her a bath because she smelt so bad from been locked up in a cage for a month, the water was black. It has actually taken us 10 washes to get it out. She was a lot less confident than Marley as we got him young and before he actually had real owners (he had foster carers before us). Heidi is what we named her. They think she is about 3-4 years old. She was scared of water to the point where she would be paralysed on the spot and not move, she was scared if you put your hand down to her face too fast, wasn't toilet trained for inside and is STILL scared of traffic which is super hard when you try to cross the road. We are really impressed with how she is going with all of these things... She is 100% toilet trained now as well! These are my two Furbabies who are my everything! I hope you have enjoyed reading about them and expect to see their names pop up A LOT in future posts! I figure that I should introduce myself to you all before getting into things! What an exciting day it is, to be introducing myself to a bunch of strangers on the internet... Something I never pictured myself doing!
I am going to have a basic "introduce myself" post, however if you have any questions I would love to answer them. Hey maybe I could do a Q and A type thing? You ask the questions and I answer? That would be fun. Well here it goes: Age: 18 Birthday: 14th of October, 1997 Favourite colour: Red Favourite food: This is an extremely tough one. I am actually in the process of transitioning to a vegetarian diet. I have only JUST started (as in TODAY just started) this transition. As a meat eater my favourite foods would have to be Tacos, Lasagne, Beef and Red Wine casserole and a Roast... Whether that be chicken, lamb or pork (not beef though!). As a (future full time) vegetarian I like spinach and Ricotta Pastries, Nachos, Steamed Vegetables and Gnocchi. I am trying a new recipe out tonight though so I am hoping that can be added to my favourite vegetarian foods list! Plans for the future: As I am still young I struggle to answer this question because I am constantly coming up with new ideas. I hope to one day run my own business though. At the end of July I am starting an Apprenticeship as a Dog Groomer which is something I am very interested in and can be a great start for a business of my own one day. I hope to be able to work from home with whatever I do because I want to home-school my kids. Yes, I get that this may change when I actually have kids but at the moment I am passionate to give them a Steiner education and the only way to do that is at home. Most prised possessions: I love my teddy bear Ferby. I have had him since before I was born and still sleep with him most nights! Siblings: I have two siblings. My little sister Taliya (17) and my little brother Rueben (4). Things I struggle with: Anxiety, stress, maths, forced social environments, motivating myself, being alone at night. What I don't like: Oh the list could go on... Racism, sexism, addiction, alcohol, spicy food and mice... Just to name a few. Favourite bands: This changes every week to be honest because I am a big music listener and discover new bands all the time. At the moment my top favourites are: Modern Baseball The Smith Street Band NOFX Nick cave and The Bad Seeds Instruments I play: Drums, Piano, Guitar and I sing. Favourite YouTubers: I am OBSESSED with YouTube channels that have babies in them. I am an extremely clucky person and cannot wait to have little babies one day. I watch these channels daily and am kind of hooked: KKandBabyJ: https: //www.youtube.com/channel/UCU-ZXqhx1xjsxO1ftXJELdg OKbaby: https ://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvUCbnwzySKgbKiB_n0O0jQ Emily Wegner: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCp0Nn508NnKz6yuY0HEAcdg What's growing in my garden: At the moment it is winter vegetable themed so we have beetroot, carrots, Brussel sprouts, broccoli, cauliflower, snow peas, spinach, lettuce, onions, thyme, oregano and rosemary. Who is sitting on my couch: They are actually lying on my couch! These two "things" are my beautiful dogs! Heidi and Marley. I don't want to go into detail with them because I want to do a post about them soon and don't want to spoil the story. I feel like I will write blog posts about some of these things soon but for now here is a bit about me. Comment below if you have any questions or ideas for my blogs! |
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