A roller coaster of emotions thrashing you around to the point where you don’t know what to truly feel. You’re so happy, yet you are also the saddest you’ve been in your life when reality kicks in. Your family rhythm that you spent years perfecting is suddenly non-existent and between having your boobs out, changing nappies and trying to rest all you want is to snuggle your toddler who doesn’t understand why you’re so tired and can’t get down into the floor to play properly.
You long for your Yoni to be healed so that you can perhaps grasp a sense of ‘normal’ in yourself again with a moment with your partner. You miss the kicks in your belly, cry when you get in the shower as you birthed your baby in there and have never felt so powerful and alive... Yet that power seemed to slip away with the sleepless nights while you snuggle your newborn who has a tummy ache again, or the hours you spend trying to burp your baby and talk words of encouragement “I know you can get this poo out little guy”. You want to and know you should rest during the day but also want to soak in these moments as it’s the only time off your partner ever has, you know you should sleep but you want to hold your toddler so that they know they’re still there, you lay in bed slowly fall asleep only to be woken up with a little human needing more boob. You love everything in your life but are grieving what you were so used to... the snuggles you get with your baby are so precious, the sounds that they make as they latch onto your breast are so special, you’ve never seen your toddler so happy and in love with having her Dad home, visitors bring treats and food for you and this is the first time you’ve been able to have your feet up since you were pregnant the first time 💕 it’s pure bliss. This won’t last forever I know. And in a month I’ll be missing this bubble of quirky, tired, perfection but my oh my do you forget how hard it is coming off the pregnancy hormones and trying to readjust to a new rhythm. “This is the roller coaster of post partum theme park, keep your boobs out for baby and legs closed together at all times for optimal healing”! 😆
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